Mood Swing

Assalamualaikum,
First day of Ramadhan, Alhamdulillah, we're still alive. I woke up at 0445 for the sahur. Slept again after Subuh until 8. Isyh3 something that anak dara shouldn't be doing. Haha. Anyway, I felt a little bit down today. Missing my family and hometown I guess. But to be honest, it's more than that. I felt alone. For the first time in 4 weeks, I felt alone. A.L.O.N.E. Although I have my roommates and housemates accompanying me and also Mr Geek here in Kuantan, that loneliness can still be felt.

And I broke into tears today. It's been a while since I did that tho. Not to say that I've managed to keep myself up and strong but yeah, I cried. Just a quick sobs and such, nothing much. Enough to make me feel a lil bit better, if not too much. Mr Geek has been busy this few days. I guess that adds to the fact that I had to survive by being someone else. It's hard when you have to fake your smile and your laughter just to ensure people would stop pestering you with questions.

"Ikah, okay ke?"

"Ada masalah ke?"

Truthfully, I'm not anti-social, but these questions bother me to the fact that I would rather punch someone instead of really answering it. Haha. Well well well. Just me being me, I guess. Currently I'm in the mood of trying to make sure that I would feel better and probably hide my just cried face. LOL. So, Mr Geek, do me a favour and call me.

Girls are so complicated that's why we don't understand you guys-Mr Geek

P/S : Mr Geek, thanks for calling me Miss Freaky Geeky, like that. BTW, can we continue the argument about how to spell my name? Thank you ^_^

I'm A Proud Bahasa Malaysia Speaker?

Assalamualaikum,
It's been a while since I update this damn 'sacred' blog. Haha. Just kidding. Anyhow, this is my fifth week away from home. My fourth week of classes. Well tiring, but I guess this kind of teach me to be much more stronger than what I used to be.

Having to speak in English like 80% of the time, sigh had taught me how precious the Bahasa Melayu itself. It's been rough to actually realize that most of my housemates don't really know how to construct proper Bahasa Malaysia's sentences. So yeah, I'm sad. Having a Bahasa Malaysia teacher as my mom, I really appreciate that like so much.

So please, do speak proper English and please at least know how to construct a decent sentences in Malay.

I LOVE BM <3

"Weih, sedih arr orang Melayu tak reti Bahasa Malaysia."

"What? You expect Chinese or Indians to be good in BM or what?"

Urgh, don't cry Ikah. Rants.

I'm afraid that this is not even related but please enjoy this video. LOL. Watched it years ago. Hopefully it's the same video since I'm too lazy to re-watch it. Haha.

P/S : Happy fasting everyone. Let's change for good. Let's leave our sins behind and start anew. (Can you see me literally translating from BM.) Hehe

Ahlan Wasahlan ya Ramadhan

ps : I miss my parents so much on this very first day of Ramadhan...

Placement Test

Assalamualaikum,

This is my fourth day in Kuantan, and everything had been good so far. Well to be honest, not really. We have like 12 girls under one roof. One room consists of 4 people. My roommates? Well one of them, Syazwani or as I called her Wani, had lived in UK for 4 or 5 years. Which is super awesome since I really want to live there!

So yeah, she does have the slang, the British slang. She can’t even speak Malay well, which is not surprising. -.- Anyway, she’s one of the biggest threat so far. I’m so scared, since I can’t even speak in English fluently, so to even compete with someone who’s accustomed to speak English, that would not be easy.

Back to the title, ‘Placement Test’, today (9^th June), we will be sitting for the test. This test will somehow ranked us from the lowest to the highest in English. We’ll study in that class, so we need to do our best (at least) to prove ourselves.

To be honest, I’m petrified, I know I’m not the best here. I felt small and I start to doubt myself more and more, day by day. Hmm >.<

I guess that’s the only time I have for now, I got to go and get ready. T_T. Wish me succeed and all the best, okay?

Goodbye!