Mood Swing

Assalamualaikum,
First day of Ramadhan, Alhamdulillah, we're still alive. I woke up at 0445 for the sahur. Slept again after Subuh until 8. Isyh3 something that anak dara shouldn't be doing. Haha. Anyway, I felt a little bit down today. Missing my family and hometown I guess. But to be honest, it's more than that. I felt alone. For the first time in 4 weeks, I felt alone. A.L.O.N.E. Although I have my roommates and housemates accompanying me and also Mr Geek here in Kuantan, that loneliness can still be felt.

And I broke into tears today. It's been a while since I did that tho. Not to say that I've managed to keep myself up and strong but yeah, I cried. Just a quick sobs and such, nothing much. Enough to make me feel a lil bit better, if not too much. Mr Geek has been busy this few days. I guess that adds to the fact that I had to survive by being someone else. It's hard when you have to fake your smile and your laughter just to ensure people would stop pestering you with questions.

"Ikah, okay ke?"

"Ada masalah ke?"

Truthfully, I'm not anti-social, but these questions bother me to the fact that I would rather punch someone instead of really answering it. Haha. Well well well. Just me being me, I guess. Currently I'm in the mood of trying to make sure that I would feel better and probably hide my just cried face. LOL. So, Mr Geek, do me a favour and call me.

Girls are so complicated that's why we don't understand you guys-Mr Geek

P/S : Mr Geek, thanks for calling me Miss Freaky Geeky, like that. BTW, can we continue the argument about how to spell my name? Thank you ^_^